Inside Huggybear's Mind

March 29 to April 5

Twilight In Independencia
Meeting My Fiance
Sensing Mutants
Changing Scenes

Twilight In Independencia

February 23, 2014

I just got back from out of town. It's 6:20 p.m. as I write this. I'm sitting on the large roots of an immortal tree in Plaza Independencia in Cebu. Above me, strewn over the branches, are a dozen meter-length Christmas lights.

Behind me, if I peer behind the centuries-old trunk, is Fort San Pedro, the 16th century Spanish fortress that's now a museum. Even the ghosts of the soldiers who manned the ramparts have long been gone.  

I was listening to the park regulars' traditional mock debates earlier. The topics will never change: religion, politics and current events. It's just like in Luneta in Manila and Hyde in London.

The air is getting cold. It's becoming quieter as the zumba just ended. People are starting to leave. Night has fallen. "My favorite times of the day are dawn and dusk," I remember once telling a friend who's now also dead. "There is something sacred in the struggle between light and darkness."

It's now one of those times.  "Heavenly shades of night are falling, it's twilight time," as the Platters classic goes. But my favorite Platters song is the one in my favorite Steven Spielberg film.

Smoke Gets In Your Eyes
The Platters
[Theme from Always]

Meeting My Fiance

February 26, 2014

It was one of those telepathic dreams again. I was in a empty street.

Across the grassy vacant lots to the next block, I can see the back of one of the houses I grew up in as a kid.

A voice was telling me that my fiance was waiting for me at the red front gate of our house. I saw in my mind she looked like stage actress and New Voice repertory founder Monique Wilson. I told Sue Storm of the Fantastic Four, who was beside me, to ask her to wait. I was about to go there when everything vanished.

Then I was in a room. I went to the next where I heard Iisa Pa Lamang.

Iisa Pa Lamang
Joey Albert

It's about having been involved in so many relationships then meeting someone whom you loved above them. There's a story there which I've forgotten because I had to rush out of bed when I woke up. But I remember scenes where I was eating spaghetti, and I was talking to an aunt who's now in a nursing home and a cousin who had died almost a decade ago.

Sensing Mutants

February 28, 2014

It seems I'm getting more psychic in my dreams. I haven't seen the future yet. Or maybe I did but didn't sense it. I'm not sure if I want to.

I was trying to climb out of a hole that transformed into a bridge. I was hanging under it. I can sense the presence of mutants around me.

In another scene, I was explaining the meaning of a ancient Chinese symbol.

Then I was sitting in a chair that's inside a wooden box. I have been moving the box with my telekinetic powers, driving it in the street like an SUV. In a flash, I was running naked in the street, holding a large block of wood to cover my genitals. It was night. I ran under and alongside a flyover. The city was deserted.

Changing Scenes

February 26, 2014

Spirits moved me. I felt a Higher Power pushing me to refresh my mind.

It was the day I finished reading Worker In The Light by George Noory and William J. Birnes, when I began the exercises in remote viewing and lucid dreaming.

I felt the urge to travel, if only to change my environment. On the way back to my place, I swooped by Booksale in SM Cebu. I approached a group of service crews at a food kiosk

"Where's BookSale?" I asked.

They don't know.

"It's a bookstore," I said.

One of them pointed to the next level.

"That's National," I said.

"Bookstore," he replied.


I found BookSale and zoomed in. I bought Stephen King's The Gunslinger, Ashley McConnel's Quantum Leap, based on the hit '80s series and The Rule of Four by Ian Caldwell and Dustin Thomas.

"The Rule of Four"
by Ian Caldwell and Dustin Thomason
(Read March 10, 2014)

Paul Harris: Huggybear
Tom Sullivan: Zac Efron
Charlie Freeman: Chiwetel Ejiofor
Gil Rankin: Jesse Eisenberg
Katie Marchand: Emma Stone
Bill Stein:  Jason Schwartzman
Richard Curry: Ben Kingsley
Vincent Taft: Al Pacino
Patrick Sullivan: David Strathairn 
Detective Gwynn: Sigourney Weaver
Girolamo Savoranola: Robert De Niro
Francesco Colonna: Daniel Day Lewis

"I'm now in the house, bro," I replied to the text message from CB, another close friend, around noon. "I just got back from Mandaue with JC and NJ. We had breakfast in KFC in Park Mall. I had garden salad, chicken steak and a large bowl of gravy. I was thinking of going to Mactan Shrine but I'll do it during the weekend instead. I was planning to drop by Lahug and go to the funeral if you had replied earlier. So I'll probably be there tomorrow after gym. Then let's go to Camiguin."

I should do this more often.


"Classic economic theory, based as it is on an inadequate theory of human motivation, could be revolutionized by accepting the reality of higher human needs, including the impulse to self actualization and the love for the highest values."

~Abraham Maslow
Abraham: GETTING INTO THE VORTEX: THE BIG ONE - Esther & Jerry Hicks
"As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again and again. To make a deep mental path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives."

~Henry David Thoreau
I am who I am because of Henry David Thoreau. His spirit of independence is my source of strength. I find my own voice as I blaze my own trail in a world of compromise. I make my voice heard above the noise of conformity. Today I sent my article on inner peace. The story and the cover letter are both a testament of my spiritual conviction.
“It cannot be seen, cannot be felt,
Cannot be heard, cannot be smelt,
It lies behind stars and under hills,
And empty holes it fills,
It comes first and follows after,
Ends life, kills laughter.”

~J.R.R. Tolkien
The Hobbit