Saturday, April 29, 2017

Some Kind of Magic

Saturday Stories
April 29, 2017

If I list the things that bring me joy everyday, and I mean each and every single day, I won't be able to finish until October.

I have, of late, felt the full flowering of my creative and intellectual gifts. At work, it seems that people are beginning to rely more from me, not only for answers and assistance, but also that I could handle things more masterfully.

I feel that everybody, both my colleagues here and in the United States, are beginning to hold me on an increasingly higher standard. Looking back, it seems that those who get to know me would invariably have great expectations of me.

When I first got promoted, I held it not only as a stronger motivation to achieve excellence and be a role model for the people I lead, but also a priceless opportunity to prove to myself that I can hold power and never be corrupted by it.

And power never even affected me, to which I feel gratitude and a sense of vindication that words alone cannot possibly express.

If these things have happened a few years earlier, I might have been overwhelmed. I cannot pinpoint the paradigm shift, but I know there must be some kind of magic along the way, and that is enough for me as I continue my journey.

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Saturday, April 22, 2017

This Moment

 Saturday Stories
April 22, 2017

What I think of a person has nothing to do with how others choose to perceive him. When I talk to someone, whoever he is, in whatever circumstance, I try to make him feel (at least with me) that he can throw away his emotional baggage.

On this moment, right now, you can choose to return to the cycles that have always held you back. Or, you can choose to let go and make this moment a new beginning. Yesterday is gone, and no amount of regret and guilt can change the past. The future may not even be as what we demand it to be, and we can't even know for certain if we'll still be alive tomorrow.

This moment is all we have. That poignant sense of impermanence is part of the miracle of life.

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Saturday, April 15, 2017

Angels Brought Me Here

Saturday Stories
April 15, 2017


I still have a photograph of me. This is my latest desktop screensaver at the office.

I love animals. I find it much more pleasant to reach into their minds, as compared to humans with all that swirling mass of thoughts and emotions.

I love the countryside, being with nature, away from the noise. I thrive in silence and solitude.

I think I'm one of the few people in the world who will survive, and even enjoy, deep solitary confinement.

Here is a brief excerpt from my one of my books, which I've written when this video was shot.


When people ask me why I left the capital and chose to live in the province, I would always say it's because "angels brought me here." That is the truth in the highest sense. There was somebody who popped that question just when I was feeling introspective. "I was looking for something and I found it here," I said simply. "Then I decided to stick around. I made new friends. I got a house in the city. I found a job and here I am."

They thought I was talking about finding romantic love. That would come later. What I really meant was that I found healing for my emotional wounds. I felt it as I swam far out alone in the sea every night. It was a sense of knowing that I have in me the spark of the divine from my Creator, that my inner being transcends the pain I was going through at that time, and that I can rise above whatever else that will come my way.

~ The Huggybear Diaries, March 28, 2017

Saturday, April 08, 2017

The Healing of The Planet

Saturday Stories
April 8, 2017


I stood looking down at the city, sparkling under the rain, watching the headlights of the cars as they cruise down the glistening pavement.

My mind was serene, like a lotus in the middle of a pond, my thoughts quietly flowing apart from me. I was on the 14th floor, technically, but spatially I was on the 13th, and I feel lucky.

A co-worker sneaked up to me, and he was surprised that I wasn't surprised. We then talked about, of all things, the weather and climate change.

I said that the planet knows how to heal itself, in the same way that the human body does.

Still, nature needs a hand from time to time, in the same way that a person would sometimes need a hot compress, or a herbal drink or even a pill, to help him to get to the point where the self-healing can begin.

~ The Huggybear Diaries, March 29, 2017

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Saturday, April 01, 2017

Just Some of My Favorite Movie Characters

Saturday Stories
April 1, 2017

I've been going through a couple of radical changes lately, kind of like Peter Parker coming to grips with his new and amazing Spider-Man powers. It would be cool if they were that spectacular, but they're not, though I'm having a lot of fun. So I can relate to Peter in certain ways, like being the outsider with good secrets.

Peter is one of my favorite movie characters on a personal level, like Henry Cavill's Clark Kent. I feel the connection from two other guys who taught me more about leadership than most of the real life managers I've met: James McAvoy's Charles Xavier and Chris Pines' Captain Kirk.

This is the Andrew Garfield Peter. The first, the one with the giant lizard, is actually one of my all-time favorite movies. I've faced bullies of my life and I've always aggravated them even more when they realized I wasn't even afraid of them. This sometimes could be a very narrow minded world, but I learned enough to know that

~ The Huggybear Diaries, June 13, 2015

The Amazing Spider-Man

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